I lay in bed awake, the gears continue to turn in my head! I toss and turn, never finding a position that is quite suitable! Restless, my body aches, my muscles throb from complete fatigue, my hands are blistered and cut, and I want nothing more than to fall asleep! But I am bound in the chains of unforgiving pain, I try to fight it.Yet, I can't. I can't sleep, I cant rest, I can't even think of closing one eye! For every time I try its louder and the pain and agony gets more intense!

Its, like the pounding never stops! It continues on and on and on! I just want it to go away, I want it to be silent! It doesn't stop! I cry out in fits of rage, anger, hatred, disgust, but it continues, the knocking, the pounding, never stops. Why? WHY? WHY? cant it stop, why wont it go away? Why, cant I sleep in peace at night and dream the night away, Why OH lord Why? 

 I find myself, many nights in this state, confused frustrated, angry, feel like I am all alone, and yet the knocking never stops! But instead of "opening the door" I close it tighter and barricade it off! leave me alone is what my body and mind is saying, but my heart is saying open the door! But I shut off the lights and act like no one is home, and yet it continues louder, and the frustration builds, and the pain of the night builds as the darkness creeps over! Finally I jump out of bed and stumble over something to flip on the lights. Even more angry now, 

with

a tongue full of poison taking control, everything in the darkness has been revealed. Every crack, every corner, everything that we thought was hidden. Its all in the light. 

I look at my feet in conviction, and realized what I have stumbled over, my bible, the word, the lamp unto my feet, and the light unto my path! "For this reason I say to you, awake oh sleeper and arise from the dead and Christ will shine on you! For you were formerly Darkness but now you are light in the Lord! 

-ANONYMOUS

I FOUND THIS AND THOUGHT IT TO BE PRETTY INTERESTING, SO I THOUGHT I'D PLACE IT ON MY BLOG, HOPE YOU ENJOY IT AND THAT IS GOT YOU THINK AS IT DID ME!

LOVING THE MADNESS

-BS

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ME!

I decided its time for a change! Since depression has set in from being out of work for over 2 months now, I have found myself sleeping in untill one or two in the afternoon and then filling myself with fastfood! Wow what a toll its taken on me! But hey its a new year and never to late to change! RIGHT! Well here is what I look like now!

I never thought I would let myself get to this point but I have! UGH. What do I do! Well I would like you to meet a friend of mine that said my new years resolution could come true with help from him, and letting myself get a little pep back in my step! His name is Richard! YES YOU GUESSED IT RICHARD! THE ONE AND ONLY! He is going to help me out so much and he said if I

really try, I mean really try I may be able to even look like he did at my age! When he told me that I was shocked, I through away that double stuffed borrito I was eating and I went to work! Im going to look like richard did! Now what do you think about that! I am one sexy machin! Ok, OK OK OK, enough is enough, just have a happy new year and dont let yourself look like the first picture! hahahahah

Loving The MADnesS

-BS

Busy.... Busy..... Busy.... Everyone is so busy this time of year amd often miss the small moments of life! Well i was looking at some pictures taken not to long ago, and realized that I not only missed small little moments that I could never regain, but ones that would have left a print on me forever! Thanks to such an amazing mother who takes pictures without us knowing sometimes, I got to look back on a few moments and thought I would share one with you! Victoria is an amazing little girl who I absolutely LOVE, and she for some reason loves me back! Take time to stop and enjoy the little moments, they pass so fast and never will return! So at this time of year as we look to and remember the true meaning of Christmas as our savior being born! Stop and love those who mean the most to you even if it means having to be uncomfortable! Love is a GREAT gift God has given, dont miss out on the little momments!!!!

-BS

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family

Last night I had the amazing time playing like I was ten again with my "little" brothers in the snow! We got home around 11:45 and decided that Ben and I were going to build a snow fort for all the kids! So we got our snow clothes on and went out with Ox. We had a blast and soon enough we were having so much fun that Bryan had to come join in. We were out for a good Hour and a half atleast, and another half hour of laughing at the bimbo trying to plow the lot across the street! What a joke. it was pretty funny! Man to be ten again and have no worries and just get to play outside with your siblings. What an amazing thing! The memories that were brought back and the memories that were made. Its Christmas! Isnt that what this time of year is all about! Christ beng born, and our love for our family!

Baby Good bye doesnt mean forever!

Well today has been full of mix feelings for me! I sold my pride and joy! My JEEP! I never thought I would get rid of her! But I did! But you know what, like the song by hootie and the blowfish! BABY GOODBYE DOESNT MEAN FOREVER, BABY GOODBYE DOESNT MEAN WILL NEVER SEE EACHOTHER AGAIN!!!! I will get another jeep! ANyone wanna buy my 05 Ford F250 superduty! its diesel and its pretty amazing! I want a jeep! 

Long Past Due!!!!

Well for some time now my mom has been harping on me to post a new blog so that she can stop clicking on mine and realize there is only a nasty picture of puke there! Haha, well the puke stays so I am sorry to anyone who doesn't want to look at it! Just don't scroll down that far! Well, a lot has been going on in my life! God has been doing some huge things in my heart which opened my eyes to a road that was leading nowhere fast! Resulting in nothing but destruction! It has been a rough road that has brought me nothing more than pain and heart ache! To the world I probably looked like I was doing pretty good! But I was failing miserably! My life looked a lot like Proverbs 29:18. Which says where there is no vision, the people perish...... God was not letting me sleep, I couldn't eat, I couldn't even sit through a church service without being pierced to the heart! Let me explain it to you in a way a very wise man did to me so that I could put my mind around it!...... and I quote!

"The verse is literally talking about prophets having visions from God! This was a manner God often used to reveal his mind and plan to the prophets. So, where there is no revelation from God, where God is not communicating or being communicated with and to the people, they, looking for answers to their appetites, drives and needs, end up perishing! literally (again) cast of restraint and run wild resulting in death kinda like a train throwing away it's tracks, thus ...outa control. So, no revelation from God, no direction or understanding and everything is up for grabs, realtionships, sex, lying, cheating, stealing, hatred, gossip. you name it! Nothing is off limits! I, not hearing Gods voice declaring truth, cast off restraint running to my death, as I try and satisfy every appetite I have my own way with everything under the sun."

Which hit me like a ton a bricks! Wow, how blinded by sin I have become, and not even feel any effects! YET! For what you sow, you WILL reap! But I am happy, God has pulled me from my pit of despair and opened my eyes to it! So, this all happened like three weeks ago! So I will fast Forward now to where I am at! I ended up stepping down from the Landscape Company I owned with my brother! I felt God telling me to let it go. I am at peace with that! I am stuck in my apartment lease until may! I have a lot of bills I NEED to pay! But the coolest thing ever is! God, has given peace! Why? Because I have a vision now! I know what I am called to do! Live for God today not tomorrow! Do everything I do to Glorify God! So that is what I am doing now, and its keeping me going day to day! So as I sit here Jobless, not knowing what job I am supposed to do to break these chains that I have enslaved myself to! I sit and wait and call upon the lord! SO HERE AM I SEND ME! AND ITS AN ADVENTURE THAT IS AMAZING!

-LOVING THE MADNESS

BS

OUCH!

So today I just got back from taking Ox for a walk. Its such a beautiful day out! Upon return, I saw that I left my energy drink sitting on my patio.. I wasnt even thinking and took a drinnk! The first one hit the spot, but as I gulped down the second swig, I felt a lump in my throat followed by a sharp pain... I knew I swallowed a stupid bee! So I ran in my apartment and grabbed ox.. I tried making myself throw up but couldnt get it to come.. So I headed over to Dave and Caseys. (my brother and sister in-laws.) when I got there I told them what stupid thing I had done and dave told me to start slamming the water.. I chugged three big glasses and ran into the bathroom where I jammed my fiingers as far down my throat as I could.. I didnt know what a throat felt like, but I do now.. I started to discharge actually propell the vomet into the toilet and out popped this.....

If you look in the upper right corner you will make note of the stupid bee. So now I am doped up and trying not to fall asleep! hahahahaha

P>S I dont know how people can make themself freakin throw up..... WIERDOSSSSSSSSSSSS

THE CAUSE OF "THE MADNESS"

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Running Scared!

Walking through the woods he hears something snap. The kind of sound that sends chills down your back! He turns quickly, and seeks cover behind a fallen log hoping to find enough shelter to keep him out of site! Who are these people that are after me? He ask himself! "I have done nothing wrong!" I just want to be left alone! As he lies there thoughts from the past start to haunt him. Making him weary of what may be to come. Finally mustarding up enough courage, lunging to his feet he makes a mad dash to the clearing.. An old mining shaft is on the westside of where he played as a kid, that he can hide out in for a while. Running scared, heart beating so hard he feels it in his head.. Only a few more steps and he will be safe and sound! Will he make it?

Many times in life we try to stay a few steps ahead of things that haunt us. We try to lock all the skeletons in the closet, hoping that they will be burried enough not to be found... But the fact of the matter is halloween is on its way ad thats when the skeletons come out to play. So during this time of year that is so simple and fun for children. It was not started for Tricks or Treats. So do something good durning this time of year and start to clean your closet by facing your skeletons straight on, so you dont have to be running scared anymore!

MY NAME IS OLD GLORY

As I laid there musket in hand, unable to stand. My hands trembling in fear, knowing that someone may be waiting there. I could not bring my self to bear what pain and agony I might endear.. But as I fought the selfish fight I brought my self to my feet only to realize, she was already flying there. Even though she was tattered and torn, and beat like never before, she was flying sky high for all to see with out mistake that you will not win this victory.. For this is a nation under God and by his hand we will carry on. Side by side I fight along with my brothers who died to carry it on... No matter the wager no matter the call..... This is the United States of America and we will carry on!

-BS

My heart goes out to all that has served this beautiful land we call home.. Thank you all for your dedication and honor to keeping us free.... GOD BLESS AMERICA

Having Some Fun

Well, Today I had the day off of work because I had to go to court.. Things there did not go so well but I really don't care. I decided that when I got home I would take the dogs out to play because we got a fresh covering off snow last night.. We had a blast playing.. Motega doesnt even need a leash he is like a cat and wont stay out from under your feet.. Well here are some pictures I hope you enjoy them!

the new little bugger and wen-no-nah!

To give, give, give, give..... and never expect anything?

Growing up, I never had very much in the worlds standards. We didn't have all the fancy toys or my parents did not drive the coolest cars. We did not have the biggest house, in fact our house 99.9% of the time has been to small to fit our family. Let me tell you something though. We did have family. Yea, yea, yea. I know what your thinking.... I have a family too. I have a mom and a dad, and sometimes I have two dads and two moms due to our worlds skewed perception of what they call marriage. Well your wrong you do not have a family! That's right, you did not miss read what I said. YOU ARE WRONG. YOU DO NOT HAVE A FAMILY! Yes, I know you want a rebuttal. Well your not getting one. This is my blog. Family, what is it...... What does it look like.... How should one function........
1. Family, what is it- After looking over many definitions of what the word family means I have decided to write my own definition.
Family-"A group of people who are related, whether by blood or share common attitudes, interests, or goals and, frequently, live together in pursuit of the desires God has placed on there hearts!
You see a family has one sound.. You may ask well what do you mean by that... Well, family is very much similar to a band. When all the instruments are fine tuned and playing correctly, the band has one voice... Well I believe the family works the same way.... When everyone in the family is pulling their own weight in whatever form that may be, The family has one sound....

Now let me tell you why I have decided to blog on this topic. Last night around this time, my older brother and I were sitting in his apartment listening to music softly and looking at what we like to call our dreams! We began to talk about jobs, careers, dreams, money, and FAMILY. I looked at my brother Dave and I said to him, "Dude, I wanna be a wild man".. Dave's response was a laugh and then followed by what do you mean.... So I told him. I do not want the normal job, I do not want the 9 to 5 hours. I want my job to be the outdoors... He said, " bro, I know exactly what you mean". After that followed some small talk and other things until on the TV a thing about Alaska popped on. We both instantly were captured at the sight of the rugged Rock bursting forth from under the heavily coated blanket of snow.... We both looked at each other and said, dude I wanna go there so bad!!!!! Then Dave asked me the question,,,, Why do we love the outdoors so freaking much.... With out hesitation I responded........... BECAUSE DAD DOES!!!!! It goes back to that family thing,,,, same interest same goals, same heart beat..... You see Just like my father our whole family loves people, loves the outdoors and loves change...... All due to the simple fact of family..... But you say that doesnt explain why you like what your dad likes... But it does.. You see I also found another definition for family.......
"a group of products or product models made by the same manufacturer or producer" See we all are from the same bi-product.... We all are made in the image of God, and God placed each of us in this FAMILY, because he knew we all had the same interest and goals.... And when we all are doing what we are supposed to be We have one heart beat, and one sound and with that we could conquor any mountain or rugged terrain in our path.......The exhileration of reaching the summit of the tallest peak compares nothing to the thrill of the knowledge and discipline gained by each step of the journey. Most never see the summit for fear of the journey. Join me and my family on every step of our "journey" as we walk through lifes challenges. Our goal like the summit is not in the destination but the challenge and growth we will find in each others company as "iron sharpens iron" and the opportunity of a life transformed by the reality of the path.
I hope you can someday experience a family such as mine!
BEating my BODY
-BS

New pup

So we got a new puppy on Christmas day! He has been kind of unsure about his new surroundings, but finally today he really seemed to perk up and was talking to me like crazy so i hope you enjoy the video clip of him!

Doggie Bath time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAH WHAT A BATH TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So it was doggie bath time. My dog Wenonah is a beautiful Alaskan Malamute, that really need a good bath.. But there is one problem she hates water... It was a wrestleing match the whole time.. But we got her all cleaned up and smelling much better... I should have taken pictures of what the bathroom looked like once I finished but I think mom would have freaked out if she saw them!!!! Thanks mom for letting me wash her inside!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope you enjoy the pictures and movies!!!! By the way she escapes in one of the movies you will see.. hahaha

Loving the MadNESS

-BS

Here are some pictures of her being all clean and laying comfortably on the kitchen floor!!!

WHats her name?

So last year around this time I was in the dominican Republic on a mission trip. I Was eating in the food court and came accross the most beautiful girl in the World. To bad I didnt even ask her name! I know what in the WORLD was I thinking.. I guess it didnt help I looked like I was a poor boy dressed in rags.. hahah... So what is her name.....Help me find her.... hahahahaha

Happy get FAT day!

HAPPY get FAT day!!!!! Is what I think about every time around this time of year... You may ask why in the world do you think that?! Well lets just think for a moment, if you can spare a moment. I will take you down a little road I like to travel, called gluttony trail! So here we go on the fat bus! Please fasten your extra large seatbelts and enjoy the ride! Notice on the right you will see the klump family enjoying there rather large feast of fatening foods! And as wee travel on you will see the large I dont know what she is grazing in the field. Ok ok ok enough enough enough.. Gosh this is sick come on people just be a little bit consiencious about your health!!!!!

Loving the maddness!!!

-BS